It’s not even 11 a.m. and this week is shaping up… to be one of those challenging weeks that will lead to all kinds of statements like, “just trust in Jesus.” “God works all things together for good…” “Pray more…”
I say that because I’m hoping to stem the tide of such statements. I am trusting in Jesus. I am praying. I know that God works all things together for good to those who love Him. I even know that not all things ARE good, but that He works them together FOR good. I know that with the stress of life that He is working in and through me to make me more like Christ, knocking off that in me that isn’t necessary so that I become more like Him. I know all those things.
BUT, that doesn’t make a week like this any easier. The pain of this week actually got started last week. Last week, we were hoping to hear from the church plant in Texas about a call to be the pastor there. We did hear, but not what we were hoping to hear. What did we hear? “No!” Sometimes God is very clear in His answers to us. This was a definite and clear answer to the prayer: “Lord, please work out a call for us so we can move to Texas.” There were other variations of that prayer, like the permanency of a call, God’s glory in the call, God’s hand in my life so that I bear much fruit in the call, etc. Some of those prayers may be answered in the future, just not with that church.
That led to the loss of money to move to Texas. One of the committees that overseas such church plants was willing to fund our move down to Texas. Without the money, the move became impossible.
That led to having to tell the rental agency that we would not be able to move into the house we rented and the loss of $1,400 in deposit money. Ouch! Fortunately, there is the possibility of reimbursement through the church. I won’t go into the details, but let’s say that someone is being benevolent with us. This still doesn’t help us completely, since we are still responsible for the rent until the agency finds someone to rent the house. If the Lord doesn’t answer our prayers on this quickly, I’m about to die to my desire to have an impeccable credit rating. Not sure how that will happen.
On top of that, the music leader the church here in Jackson hired earlier in the summer stepped down yesterday morning. Both he and his wife felt like the Lord was telling them to move on from the church. Needless to say, this was truly disappointing because they were such a blessing to me, my wife, and many in the congregation.
On top of all this, I’m having trouble with a nasty cough that seems to only want to manifest itself when I talk or laugh. In fact, I cough so hard that it causes me to pass out at times. I had an epiphany last night when one of these coughing attacks occurred, in which I passed out and hit the hard wood floors. “Hey, they don’t call these hard wood floors for no reason.” This lead to the very sore back I’m dealing with this morning.
So how am I dealing with all this? Well, trusting in Jesus, knowing all things work together for good… praying more, etc. His greater good in my life right now is certainly veiled to my fallen eyes. But His word assures me it is there, regardless of whether or not I feel it. Hopefully the events in my life will improve as the week goes on…